Esse Quam Videri

 

I want to create and be created

I want to make love and not lose

I want to feel alive and awake and

Tremble with adrenaline,

And walk on paths where I don't fill shoes.

 

I want to run but not away

I want to live but not be lived in

I want to hide without a seeker

I want lust without it being a sin.

 

I want to cry with no shame in tears

I want to dance away in my vivid dreams

I want to love and learn from everyone I touch

I want to be rather than to seem.

 

-October 2012

 

Frost

 

I’m feeling all kinds of lost

The crusts of my heart covered in frost

The vessels of my brain, so overly confused

Could be the midnight joyrides or the booze.

 

No skip in my step, I’m dragging this body

Like the ocean pulls all of the seas

And I know nobody

Can see the difference and set me free, set me free.

 

I’m feeling all kinds of tired

The single job I had in life and I got fired.

I’m carrying on my back all kinds of loads

Some owed to me and some I owe.

 

No skip in my step, I’m dragging this body

Like the ocean pulls all of the seas

And I know nobody

Can see the difference and set me free, set me free.

 

These lines of rejection I sniff

Trail back to when you left

I drink the sorrow poured on my frosted heart

As I’m watching you love someone else.

 

No skip in my step, I’m dragging this body

Like the ocean pulls all of the seas

And I know nobody

Can see the difference and set me free, set me free.

 

November 2013

 

Brighter Side

 

One day I’m crawling on the sidewalk unable to get up,

One day I’m learning to fly.

One day I’m battling with my demons,

One day the angels whisk me up so high.

 

Every day is a battle, everyday a journey,

Everyday a blessing in disguise.

It all comes together, the good and the bad

And here I am, looking for the brighter side, I’m looking for the brighter side.

 

I’m looking for the brighter Side

I’m looking for the bright side

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side

 

They told me not to care, they told me not to fight

But I couldn’t stand by, stand by watching us die.

I have to find the light, I have to find my way in,

my way into the brighter side,

My way into the brighter side.

 

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side.

 

First thing I gotta do

Is forgive myself

Unless I forgive me

Neither will anyone else

 

In all my trials and my glories

I know one thing is true

You can roam the world and it’s stories,

But peace begins inside of you.

 

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side.

 

 

September 2011

 

 

Simultaneously

 

Simultaneously,

It falls upon me, falls upon me.

All my worlds collide,

Melting inside, melting inside.

 

From seven seas to seven dreams

And seven realities

To seven seas and seven dreams

And one reality..

 

All of the sadness that tore us apart

Will flow into our hope

All of the fear that drove us away

Will lead the way back home.


 

-October 2013

 

 

Arek Rokom Raat

-  written by Sahana Bajpaie

 

Tokhon chilo onno rokom raat

Tokhon amar obak jege thaka

Akhon ache arek raat

Akhon shudhu du chokh buje rakha

 

Onek kotha bolar chilo karo

Onek raat jagar bhalobasha

Akhon chup-kothar mane khuje

Michi michi sopno neel’ey bhasha

 

Tumi bujhi ekla boshe bhabo

Onno rokom raat’er joto kotha

Kotha’r pithe kotha gorrje khali

Ghum’er ghorey duubche jotilota

 

Ami akhon tumul bhabe bachi

Bhul’er ghor’ey bhashai tomay roj

Akhon amar notun kono bhor’ey

Ekla thaka bhalobashar khoj.


 

December 2004 

 

Jokhon Chole Jao

- written by Farhan Sajjad


 

Jokhon chole jao

Shob alo nibhe jay, oshomoy

Pakhira bhule jai shur

 

Jokhon chole jao

Themey themey jay shomoy

Nij ghorey nirbashon

 

Jokhon chole jao..

 

Jokhon chole jao

Shunnotay bhore ocheton

Dondomoy hoy jibon

 

Jokhon chole jao

Ekaki janalay

Nirobotar alapon

 

Jokhon chole jao..

 

Katena ei prohor

Niyotir khela ghor

Fhirey ashbe kokhon abar

Bashonar jolodharay

Bheja akash niye

Ami chai chai tomar chowa

 

Jokhon chole jao

Neme ashey dushopno

Prithibir ghum bhenge jay

 

Jokhon chole jao

Jhorey jay shob mukhosh

Ainaye mukh chena jay

 

June 2014

 

 

Races

 

Isn’t it a lonely place playing body chess

And frivolous games?

Isn’t it an empty space

With mirrors and shines of just your face?

 

In a moment feeling happy

In a moment feeling down

All for the deserted crown,

 

Climbing over all the ties

Climbing to the curtain call

Climbing where the winner gets all.

 

All those names and all those faces

That ran with you through all the races

There’s noone to see you now

 

All those dreams and plotted schemes

You trampled on, to be in top

They’re haunting you back down.

 

 

You’re racing behind

The innocent minds

You’re watching the flock from the blind

Who only see you for the fame

 

You’re just clinging through

You’re lost in the youth

Screening yourself from the truth

How long can you keep up this game?

 

All those names and all those faces

That ran with you through all the races

There’s noone to see you now

 

All those dreams and plotted schemes

You trampled on, to be in top

They’re haunting you back down.


Oh, it’s time to grab and hold

All who loved you so

All those who came to give you, the real you

An honest lover’s life

 

All those names and all those faces

That ran with you through all the races

There’s noone to see you now

 

All those dreams and plotted schemes

You trampled on, to be in top

They’re haunting you back down.

 

December 2013 

 

Was it You

 

Yesterday when I looked up

Onto the stormy skies

And saw the sun peek out a smile

Was it you?

And when the rains come pouring down

And wash away the glee

But there’s a sparkle that I see

Was it you?

 

Everyday that passes by

Brings it own farewell

But there’s a glory that still dwells

Is it you?

 

And when hearts break and fall apart

There’s still a part of me

That never stops to dream

Is it you?

 

And when the rainbow started shining through

Was it you?

When the light reflects upon a gloom

Was it you?

 

Yesterday when I looked up

Onto the stormy skies

And saw the sun peek out a smile

Was it you?

 

And when tomorrow comes again

With newer songs to sing

amidst the troubles flickering

Is it you?

 

October 2013

 

When you are gone

 

When you are gone

You take the sun away with you

I can hear birds singing blue

 

When you are gone

Every day drags on so slow

My life revolves around the woes

 

When you are gone..

 

When you are gone

There is no meaning to this life

It all feels full of strife

 

When you are gone

It’s just me and my silent songs

And memories that I hold on.

 

When you are gone..

 

With bated breath I wait

Is it really up to fate

When will I ever see you again

On Every fountain I wish

Every clover I pick

Is so that I can be in your arms again..

 

When you are gone

There is no slumber for my mind

I can’t leave the past behind

 

When you are gone

It all goes back to the start

The echoes of my empty heart..

 

March 2014. 

 

Graceland

 

A hundred thousand miles she goes

To find herself a brand new home

She leaves behind all the riches she knows,

To her graceland she arrives.

 

The dirty stares of the crowds

The petty things people said out loud

She leaves behind those horrid sounds

To her graceland she arrives

 

She holds her little brothers hand

As she walks on to this foreign land

She'll make it here and thats her plan

To her graceland she arrives

 

She's working at starbucks 6 to 3

She had never had to make her own cup of tea

But now she finally feels free

to her graceland she arrives

 

March 2014


 

 

 

 

 

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