BAck For Me

The sky doesn't fall on me anymore

The wind does not blow me away

I don't slam when I walk out the door

my heart is healing everyday

I  lived in a drought where flowers never grew
But I feel something new

Is it raining again

Is it me or my imagination

It is back for me again

This love?

Is it true what they say

Does the pain really go away

I feel lighter but I just can't believe

Is this real or is this a dream?

I lived in desert where flowers never grew
But I feel something new

Is it raining again

Is it me or my imagination

It is back for me again

This love?

Will it grow here again

Seeds of hope and determination

Has it come for me again

This love?

songs from album

Live in sydney:

and then i fell for you

And then I fell for you

When it was the deep of the night

And I had no yearning for love

When all i knew was my own world

And you dropped right in

Pushing through like

Swimming against the waves.

And then I fell for you

Even though I didn't want to

You placed my broken wounds

In your soft lap

My head on your shoulders

My mind refusing the help

My heart needing it.

And then I fell for you

And let all tides run loose

Held back nothing of my soul

Wrapped my love

Around the neck of yours

And held on for dear life

Wild and Wonderful

Strutting around at the strike of midnight with endless talks and a bottle of wine

Forging to know myself and the spirits on my mind

You make me feel

Wild and Wonderful

All the girls warned me about you, said you liked a pretty face

But they didn’t warn you about me

And the way I play the chase

The way I feel

Wild and Wonderful

You make me feel

Wild and Wonderful

You make me feel

Wild and Wonderful

You nothing like the boys before

Who loved the songs but not the stage

Your untamed wings have roamed before

Fly with me out of the cage

You make me feel

Wild and Wonderful

Golpo Tomar Amar

Hariye pheli shobdo

Kobita lekhar

Bhule jai shuur

Gaan gawar

Chari dike ochena chokh e bhabte bhabte jai

Mone thake golpo shudhu tomar amar

Hariye pheli shobdo

Kobita lekhar

Bhule jai shuur

Gaan gawar

Chari dike ochena chokh e bhabte bhabte jai

Mone thake golpo shudhu tomar amar

Dhakka dile pori na je aar

Ghure jai na jhor er sroth e

Dhakka dile pori na je aar

Ghure jai na jhor er sroth e

Shob e thik amar moth e

Shob e thik amar moth e

Hariye pheli shobdo

Kobita lekhar

Bhule jai shuur

Gaan gawar

Chari dike ochena chokh e bhabte bhabte jai

Mone thake golpo shudhu tomar amar

Mone thake golpo

Mone thake golpo

Mone thake golpo shudhu tomar amar

Mone thake golpo shudhu tomar amar

Rope Ladder

Fell in love with a rope ladder

Always with me wherever I go,

I can mount it to a high peak

And it helps me reach my favourite tops

Fell in love with a rope ladder

Sometimes it springs lose from the anchor

Piling from the ladder to just a bunch of rope

And then, to the bottom pit I drop

south

Winter days are cold and angry

Just like the way you are with me nowadays

The bottle green eyes that used to watch me

In awe and wonder

Never spare a gaze

Oh, When did it go south

When did it go south

Suddenly saw last September

You got a new job

And I remember how

Your morning hellos and kisses goodbye

Started waning down

Oh, when did it go south

When did it go south

The girl we saw at the summer fest

The one with the familiar face

Was it her car rushing past?

When I came home

From your parents place

Oh, so easily

We fell our way from the top

The winter breeze is cold and harsh

Just like the words that I swapped with you

There is a new boy in my yoga class

Who smiles at me just the way you do

another ghost

I ran and ran and ran
Past shut doors to open arms
Trailing the maze so as not to
Ever accidentally see you.

I called ahead to make sure 
You had left
Partied when you were out of town
Stayed indoors when you weren't
Made friends you'd never meet
Walked paths you'd never see.

But it wasn't there that I saw you,
It was in the cat food aisle
At our superstore.
In the eyes of the street dog we would pet,
In the confusion of the waiter 
At the Amex lounge at the airport
In the McDonalds I scorned to eat but you devoured
In the perfect cheese snack I would make 
For the tv show we would binge watch.

I ran and ran to escape you
But you've been in me all along,
And now I live with that bit of you
Shadowing me.

I don't mind.
What's one more ghost to add to the lot?

Being in love with the kind of the world

Fell in love with the king of the world

I saw u had the pull and love for me

And the grasp over the world

I thought you would bring out the glorious in me

The hidden adventurer

The beautiful goddess

The caring lover

The undying passionate yearner for the love and the divine

Fell in love with the king of the world

When I saw u had the pull and love for me

And the grasp over the world

I thought you were the one who made me into the glorious me

Ou were the one who brought out the best in me

Fell in love with the king of the world

When I saw u had the pull and love for me

And the grasp over the world

But then I saw, it wasn’t true

I am the king of the world, not you

Songs from Album Simultaneously:

Esse Quam Videri

I want to create and be created

I want to make love and not lose

I want to feel alive and awake and

Tremble with adrenaline,

And walk on paths where I don't fill shoes.

I want to run but not away

I want to live but not be lived in

I want to hide without a seeker

I want lust without it being a sin.

I want to cry with no shame in tears

I want to dance away in my vivid dreams

I want to love and learn from everyone I touch

I want to be rather than to seem.

-October 2012

Frost

I’m feeling all kinds of lost

The crusts of my heart covered in frost

The vessels of my brain, so overly confused

Could be the midnight joyrides or the booze.

No skip in my step, I’m dragging this body

Like the ocean pulls all of the seas

And I know nobody

Can see the difference and set me free, set me free.

I’m feeling all kinds of tired

The single job I had in life and I got fired.

I’m carrying on my back all kinds of loads

Some owed to me and some I owe.

No skip in my step, I’m dragging this body

Like the ocean pulls all of the seas

And I know nobody

Can see the difference and set me free, set me free.

These lines of rejection I sniff

Trail back to when you left

I drink the sorrow poured on my frosted heart

As I’m watching you love someone else.

No skip in my step, I’m dragging this body

Like the ocean pulls all of the seas

And I know nobody

Can see the difference and set me free, set me free.

November 2013

Brighter Side

One day I’m crawling on the sidewalk unable to get up,

One day I’m learning to fly.

One day I’m battling with my demons,

One day the angels whisk me up so high.

Every day is a battle, everyday a journey,

Everyday a blessing in disguise.

It all comes together, the good and the bad

And here I am, looking for the brighter side, I’m looking for the brighter side.

I’m looking for the brighter Side

I’m looking for the bright side

I’m looking for the brighter side

They told me not to care, they told me not to fight

But I couldn’t stand by, stand by watching us die.

I have to find the light, I have to find my way in,

my way into the brighter side,

My way into the brighter side.

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side.

First thing I gotta do

Is forgive myself

Unless I forgive me

Neither will anyone else

In all my trials and my glories

I know one thing is true

You can roam the world and it’s stories,

But peace begins inside of you.

I’m looking for the brighter side

I’m looking for the brighter side.

September 2011

Simultaneously

Simultaneously,

It falls upon me, falls upon me.

All my worlds collide,

Melting inside, melting inside.

From seven seas to seven dreams

And seven realities

To seven seas and seven dreams

And one reality..

All of the sadness that tore us apart

Will flow into our hope

All of the fear that drove us away

Will lead the way back home.

-October 2013

Arek Rokom Raat

- written by Sahana Bajpaie

Tokhon chilo onno rokom raat

Tokhon amar obak jege thaka

Akhon ache arek raat

Akhon shudhu du chokh buje rakha

Onek kotha bolar chilo karo

Onek raat jagar bhalobasha

Akhon chup-kothar mane khuje

Michi michi sopno neel’ey bhasha

Tumi bujhi ekla boshe bhabo

Onno rokom raat’er joto kotha

Kotha’r pithe kotha gorrje khali

Ghum’er ghorey duubche jotilota

Ami akhon tumul bhabe bachi

Bhul’er ghor’ey bhashai tomay roj

Akhon amar notun kono bhor’ey

Ekla thaka bhalobashar khoj.

December 2004

Jokhon Chole Jao

- written by Farhan Sajjad

Jokhon chole jao

Shob alo nibhe jay, oshomoy

Pakhira bhule jai shur

Jokhon chole jao

Themey themey jay shomoy

Nij ghorey nirbashon

Jokhon chole jao..

Jokhon chole jao

Shunnotay bhore ocheton

Dondomoy hoy jibon

Jokhon chole jao

Ekaki janalay

Nirobotar alapon

Jokhon chole jao..

Katena ei prohor

Niyotir khela ghor

Fhirey ashbe kokhon abar

Bashonar jolodharay

Bheja akash niye

Ami chai chai tomar chowa

Jokhon chole jao

Neme ashey dushopno

Prithibir ghum bhenge jay

Jokhon chole jao

Jhorey jay shob mukhosh

Ainaye mukh chena jay

June 2014

Races

Isn’t it a lonely place playing body chess

And frivolous games?

Isn’t it an empty space

With mirrors and shines of just your face?

In a moment feeling happy

In a moment feeling down

All for the deserted crown,

Climbing over all the ties

Climbing to the curtain call

Climbing where the winner gets all.

All those names and all those faces

That ran with you through all the races

There’s noone to see you now

All those dreams and plotted schemes

You trampled on, to be in top

They’re haunting you back down.

You’re racing behind

The innocent minds

You’re watching the flock from the blind

Who only see you for the fame

You’re just clinging through

You’re lost in the youth

Screening yourself from the truth

How long can you keep up this game?

All those names and all those faces

That ran with you through all the races

There’s noone to see you now

All those dreams and plotted schemes

You trampled on, to be in top

They’re haunting you back down.

Oh, it’s time to grab and hold

All who loved you so

All those who came to give you, the real you

An honest lover’s life

All those names and all those faces

That ran with you through all the races

There’s noone to see you now

All those dreams and plotted schemes

You trampled on, to be in top

They’re haunting you back down.

December 2013

Was it You

Yesterday when I looked up

Onto the stormy skies

And saw the sun peek out a smile

Was it you?

And when the rains come pouring down

And wash away the glee

But there’s a sparkle that I see

Was it you?

Everyday that passes by

Brings it own farewell

But there’s a glory that still dwells

Is it you?

And when hearts break and fall apart

There’s still a part of me

That never stops to dream

Is it you?

And when the rainbow started shining through

Was it you?

When the light reflects upon a gloom

Was it you?

Yesterday when I looked up

Onto the stormy skies

And saw the sun peek out a smile

Was it you?

And when tomorrow comes again

With newer songs to sing

amidst the troubles flickering

Is it you?

October 2013

When you are gone

You take the sun away with you

I can hear birds singing blue

When you are gone

Every day drags on so slow

My life revolves around the woes

When you are gone..

When you are gone

There is no meaning to this life

It all feels full of strife

When you are gone

It’s just me and my silent songs

And memories that I hold on.

When you are gone..

With bated breath I wait

Is it really up to fate

When will I ever see you again

On Every fountain I wish

Every clover I pick

Is so that I can be in your arms again..

When you are gone

There is no slumber for my mind

I can’t leave the past behind

When you are gone

It all goes back to the start

The echoes of my empty heart..

March 2014.

Graceland

A hundred thousand miles she goes

To find herself a brand new home

She leaves behind all the riches she knows,

To her graceland she arrives.

The dirty stares of the crowds

The petty things people said out loud

She leaves behind those horrid sounds

To her graceland she arrives

She holds her little brothers hand

As she walks on to this foreign land

She'll make it here and thats her plan

To her graceland she arrives

She's working at starbucks 6 to 3

She had never had to make her own cup of tea

But now she finally feels free

to her graceland she arrives

March 2014